A Time to Fade

“Everyone needs more than anyone can give right now.”I lie in bed staring at the ceiling.  Wondering if I can possibly get away with not showering one. more. day. My joints ache.  I notice the stiffness in my fingers and toes.  This doesn’t surprise me, but the tears come anyway.  …Even my own body is against me… I used to wish things would change.  Now I wish for...

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Washer Door Reflections

Several years ago, when I moved into my current residence, I discovered that the washer door was broken.  I quickly figured out that if I did this specific convoluted wiggle balance dance then the door would close.  Soon I didn’t even have to think about it.  I just did it.  Several years and hundreds of loads later someone restored the washer door to its original functionality. ...

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Oh to be That Girl Again...

On the first page of 2019 I wrote: “Body aching. Soul empty. Mind tired. January is hard.  A reminder that life only ever gets harsher.  Hope, a mirage. ‘Foxes have holes and birds have nests Other men have families A place they can call home and find their rest But what is there for me?’ -Crownbearer”  I wrote that entry thinking I was reflecting on the...

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